[growing up the nature of his work changed. And he came to understand that the Teahouse was a cage - albeit a gilded one, and one he couldn't bring himself to leave.]
...I didn't understand my position for a very long time. I was given to the house in rags, but they gave me good clothes.
[and food, and shoes that that he all too often forgot to wear...!]
And truthfully, I was terribly doted on, being the only child below stairs. So it was home, for me.
Things changed. But some things never did - I just came to understand them properly.
[and he's hesitant, as he tries to find a way to explain without telling too much.]
...I can't presume to comprehend the decisions that were made about me in my childhood by people I barely knew, but my father gave me away for a reason. My master took me for a reason. So far as I've heard, my father owed debts, and I know my master would have never forgiven debts if there wasn't a way I could be used to pay them, or if there wasn't some gain for him.
But I didn't understand this, and so for a long while I thought I belonged there.
[ it isn't often lance finds himself regretting things; he's often of the mindset that things happen for a reason (as his mother likes to say) and even if they suck at the moment, later, in time, he'll come to find it was necessary. so he doesn't get into the habit of regret, not if he can help it, but in this moment he finds himself wishing he hadn't pried as much as he had, for the pure and honest reason that he does not know how to proceed. doesn't know how to make it better. he pushed open a door to a room he cannot quite make sense of, and now he fumbles for a proper response, worried to leave it messier and more cluttered than he had found it. ]
...Sorry. [ it is such a generic thing to say, despite his earnestness, and he seems to realize it in how he winces right after. ]
You can start over here, can't you? Live the life you wanna lead... not the one you think you were supposed to.
[it is. Everyone has their own past and circumstances. Linn is sure there are those who have had it worse than he.
A light bump of the boy's shoulder makes up for the fact that the silence will spin out a bit, while he tries to get on top of his Popsicle Situation. Miraculously it isn't melting down his hands, but it is uncomfortably close to doing so and he doesn't speak again until it's safe.
No brain freeze yet. But perhaps today is a day for miracles.]
I can - or they said I could. The struggle is in recognising my chances to do so and taking them.
Well, there's no rush in that either, you know? [ lance's popsicle is finished off with one last bite, and he fiddles with the stick for a bit after. ]
Everyone goes at their own pace and junk. You'll find out what works for you.
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But my masters were both the masters of their house...
[Xanthe and Master Atros before him. Yes, they were the masters of the servants, too, but... "employer" doesn't sound quite right]
Oh we... I wasn't paid...
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Yeah... Yeah, that isn't really allowed anymore where I'm from.
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[so much for similarities, then. Just as well he's holding back - Lance is probably not going to take so well to the rest.]
Where I'm from it's very common...
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[ unintentionally, he echoes linneus' quiet voice.
it sounds a little upsetting, but honestly who is he to judge... everyone's worlds are different... ]
Were you happy?
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[growing up the nature of his work changed. And he came to understand that the Teahouse was a cage - albeit a gilded one, and one he couldn't bring himself to leave.]
...I didn't understand my position for a very long time. I was given to the house in rags, but they gave me good clothes.
[and food, and shoes that that he all too often forgot to wear...!]
And truthfully, I was terribly doted on, being the only child below stairs. So it was home, for me.
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[and he's hesitant, as he tries to find a way to explain without telling too much.]
...I can't presume to comprehend the decisions that were made about me in my childhood by people I barely knew, but my father gave me away for a reason. My master took me for a reason. So far as I've heard, my father owed debts, and I know my master would have never forgiven debts if there wasn't a way I could be used to pay them, or if there wasn't some gain for him.
But I didn't understand this, and so for a long while I thought I belonged there.
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...Sorry. [ it is such a generic thing to say, despite his earnestness, and he seems to realize it in how he winces right after. ]
You can start over here, can't you? Live the life you wanna lead... not the one you think you were supposed to.
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[it is. Everyone has their own past and circumstances. Linn is sure there are those who have had it worse than he.
A light bump of the boy's shoulder makes up for the fact that the silence will spin out a bit, while he tries to get on top of his Popsicle Situation. Miraculously it isn't melting down his hands, but it is uncomfortably close to doing so and he doesn't speak again until it's safe.
No brain freeze yet. But perhaps today is a day for miracles.]
I can - or they said I could. The struggle is in recognising my chances to do so and taking them.
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Everyone goes at their own pace and junk. You'll find out what works for you.
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[the strangeness of the new, and the strangeness of being free. But certainly one more than the other.]
It will take some time, I'm sure. But I will get there.
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[ .. he hopes that's a common saying that they share.. ]
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[...they do not. But he can hazard I guess]
...I can take my time now, though.
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Well, we shall see. It may be that I'm ill equipped for freedom. Perhaps a bird kept in a cage for too long forgets how to fly.
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Maybe...
But hey — you just learned how to swim. How hard can flying be after that?
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[no, he hasn't.]
I shall have to learn of these.
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Well.
They're real things, I swear!
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[for birds to fly and swim; that is quite fascinating!]
Though there are many animals I don't know about. I learned about jelly-fish today. Or rather, I learned they exist..
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Oh yeah? Yeah, they're nasty little guys. But it's all part of what I said — respect the ocean, and you'll be okay.
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a dazzling place he never knew]It's just that my knowledge of such things is quite lacking. I only hear stories...
[as such, he's less than sure of their reliability, though they make for good tales]
Undersea leviathans and the like that can swallow men and ships whole...
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[ rip earth, but your oceans were truly something terrifying. ]
Though I wouldn't know what's around here... I never really thought to look too much into it, heh.
[ you won't catch this beach boy in some library... not for fun, anyway. ]
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[he's happy to do that - he will enjoy learning about strange new things!]
Perhaps there are more interesting creatures to find - other than jelly fish, I mean.